Largely, I just haven't known what to say.. and no words do any of it any justice, and nothing makes a difference to the fact that he is gone.
His love and passion to make music the driving force and most important center of our lives brought me into the same. I would not even remotely be the person I am now had my life not become intertwined with his back in 1999.
Before I met John, it never really occurred to me to have a band, or to try to make music my lifes direction. Music was fundamentally the most important thing I ever knew in my heart. it was the only thing no one could take from me or dictate what I would do with.
It was always the thing that I retreated to when I found myself in places or situations or in company where my heart did not belong. And I think that above all else is what we shared in common, which made our brotherhood something irreplaceable. For all the years of laughter, love, tears, work, difficulty, and battles we fought, sometimes against one another, I've never known another person on this earth who understood that feeling of disbelonging the way he did. It made the whole process of making our music together so much more important to us. I've never shared that bond with anyone.
It's difficult to imagine what, if any future Somewhere Beyond Echoes would have. This band was the love of John and I together. There are times I imagine finishing our unfinished work alone.. but time will tell if that is the right course.
To those of you who were moved by the music we made together, who downloaded the record, shared it with your friends, shared your experiences of our music with us...it brought us much joy to have watched that music grow wings and live on its own.
And I've felt wrong for not saying anything, because John would have wanted you to know how much he loved that you heard his voice, read his words, took a piece of the years of heart we poured into that record.
Thank you all so much.
-Matthew
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